Happy Easter!!!!!!!

I have to go visit my grandfather at his house this year because he got eye surgery and he can't drive. :-( Anyway...
Yesterday I went to the mall and spent every penny I had... Well, I actually have 76 cents left, but I don't count that. So, at the end, I walk into Borders--the best store at the mall--and just look around. I'd already bought two books at the beginning cuz that's always the first store I go into. I walk around the Sci-Fi section, the Manga section, stop for a second, look for "Rocking Heaven", walk out of the aisle, disappointed, start looking for the "39" clues books, go to the Fiction and Fantasy section and find the next book in a series that I'm reading--was very happy, BTW--pick it off the shelf, keep it under my arm, and keep walking around until I reach the romance section.
I found an author recently who I thought was AWESOME!!!!!! Julie James has only written two novels, and her first was the one I bought two weeks ago, and then I found her second which came out last month! Her first book was called, "Just the Sexiest Man Alive." It was about this lawyer who has to train People's "Sexiest Man Alive" for his new movie. In the end, he realizes--the actor, Jason Andrews--that he is madly in love with the lawyer--Taylor Donovan. Taylor makes partner at her firm, but then learns that she has to move back to Chicago instead of staying with Jason. She is sure she loves Jason, but doesn't know how to tell him. Blah, blah, blah, they end up happily ever after. Sort of. I sincerely reccommend it. So I finished her second book today. Practice Makes Perfect. This one is a little...racy... Payton Kendall is a lawyer who has some major issues with her co-worker, J.D. Jameson. He's gorgeous, witty, and has the same track record as her. But she wants to be the best. His family has money, her mom never married her father. His mom wears fur coats and eats at expensive resteraunts, her mom is a vegetarian feminist. But, when they're put on the same project, things start heating up. Their feud has been going on for eight years, and just now, they're starting to come to grips with the fact that they may be starting to...tolerate each other...to say the least... That's before their boss tells them only one of them will be making partner. The other is booted from the company. Chaos. :-)

Today's Song is so great... :-) It's kind of like, OH MY GOSH!!!!!! I can't believe this. I...I've fallen in love with the ultimately unattainable person and they don't know I exist. This is kind of for the books. But...also for a friend of mine. And me. ;-)

It's called "Accidentally In Love" by Counting Crows
If you saw Shrek, you've heard the song. :-) Check it out. I luv it.




So, I had another nightmare. Fun, right? This one was majorly cool, though. Major. :-) I haven't finished writing it down yet, but it's looked in my brain, so it's all good. I realized something about all my nightmares, though. In every one, I can't see the face of the person or animal hunting me. And I'm always being chased. And I'm always trapped. Only in one of my nightmares was I able to see the face. And it was creepy!!!!! Then, in another one, I was the person trying to hurt me... If that makes sense. It was like I was staring in a mirror but the person in the mirror wasn't me... It was weird.
And, in one, I was wearing...gulp...pink! Shudder... But then it changed into a full-on black leather outfit and I instantly enjoyed the dream. Or, the beginning anyway.
I'm sitting here, typing, listening to last Monday's song, Adam's Song, and I'm learning that some people need a life. Like, me, for example. I spend all say in my room, reading, writing, and listening to music... And I've learned from a couple of people that this is how I seem: crazy. weird. strange. go my own way. never listen. off the charts. ignorant. I resent those comments. I think this is how people SHOULD see me, because this is who I am--

Crazy: Damn straight. That's who I am.
Weird: That's my personality. You didn't notice?
Strange: Just because I don't chase guys and wear "Hellister" and "Aberzombie" apparently means there's something wrong with my brain.
Go My Own Way: Because I should. I shouldn't be controlled my the freaks who think they control the school and everyone in it. As much as the school teachers and staff think it isn't true, THERE ARE CLIQUES!!!!!!!!

Never Listen: That is completely untrue. I listen. I respond. I speak. What do you think I'm doing now?!
Off The Charts: So...I act weird and crazy and silly. Didn't we cover this? THAT'S ME!!! AND I'M DAMN PROUD OF IT!!!!!!!!
Ignorant: Okay. There's this song by McFly called "Ignorance." I am not ignorant. I'm not lacking in common sense and knowledge. Granted, I don't know everything, but, who does?!

Now, here's one of my own, and the reason I'm even making this list...

Don't Care What Anybody Thinks: There you have it. I am IMMUNE to insults. Go ahead. Try. I don't care if I'm not the smartest. I'm still smart. I don't care is I'm not pretty. I don't care if I'm too tall. I don't care. That's the main thing. :-)

So, because of this, I found a song by Raven Symone, called "Do You Own Thing." I absolutely love it. :-)



LUV U ALL! Don't forget to comment and... LIM!!!
BTW, that means Live In the Moment... Remember, I'm weird. ;-)

~Alyssa

Friday :-)

Go by Kelly Clarkson
I love this song. :-) And Kelly, of course, I love her. :-)
So, today is Good Friday, the day when Jesus died on the cross for us. And, yeah, maybe the song doesn't work with that, but I've been so focused today on this nightmare I had last night. I tried to find a song that went with the dream and I actually did, but the embedded thing was disabled. It's called Running Away by Hoobastank. It's actually really cool, so check it out on YouTube if you get a chance. :-)

Anway, the nightmare was really creepy, so, like any good author, I decided I wanted to remember it. So I wrote it down. Here it is, transformed into something called, "Visions of Fantasy."

Every once in a while, I have the same nightmare, the same, horrible dream. I'm running through darkness at an unbearably fast pace that pushes my muscles to the limit, and then I suddenly fall onto my hands and knees. Weight pushes me down so that I'm on my stomach and can't get up. Tears stream down my face. I can't see through the mist covering my eyes. I'm blind.
Somewhere in the pain, though, I hear a sound of life that let's me hold onto my sanity. A voice is screaming into the night. Only when I take a breath, do I realize that the screaming is me.
More tears cascade down my cheeks.
And then I hear footsteps, slow, steady footsteps, coming that end by my ear. I can't see anything, but I hear the click of a gun getting cocked and my heart freezes.
That's when I wake up, breathing hard, holding onto my pillow, and wondering who is the person that almost ended up killing me.

So...waddya think? I wrote it at like 2 in the morning, so I was super tired. Do not tell me it's horrible or I will cry... :-(
LOL.
I GOT 80 BUCKS!!!!!!!!!!

For my birthday, my family always sends cash, so I got 80 bucks in full. :-) I already went online to look for books and have a list of things I want when I go to Borders tomorrow. :-)
And NO FEAR of course. Awesome T-shirts there. :-)

I've been told that I don't do shout-outs enough, so I'm gonna do shout outs. UR WELCOME!!!!!

Simone: Mr. Fluffy!!!!!! You already know it all. :-) All I can say is, do not forget about the Lock In at church!!!! In-N-Out, laser tag, broom ball... It's all good, man.

Abby: THANK U, THANK U, THANK U!!!! I love all the books!!! I already finished, like, ten of them. :-)

Celeste: You have the ability to make me laugh at the stupidest things!!!! LOL!!!!!!

Lily: I...I'm speechless...

Alex: Have fun in Mexico!!! I can't believe you're chilling in another country while we're going tot he mall!

Kevin: George McFunkle? That's really I can think of. :-) LOL.

Jonathan: Keep your head above water and stop being girl-crazy. You will survive!

Julie P: I am so happy that we've grown closer. :-) Ur an awesome friend, Jules. Luv u. :-)

To all of my friends and teachers and EVERYONE!!!
I love you and I'm so happy that God had put you in my life. I'm truly blessed with all of you. I hope you enjoy the last few days of Spring Break!!!!

~Alyssa

Thursday

Heartless by Kanye West... Awesome song... :-)
But, here, they're making it seem like girls are the only heartless ones...that's why today has two songs to show that guys can be cheating jerks as well. ;-)

So...I think there is no better song than Should've Said No by Taylor Swift.
It very clearly states that the guy cheated. You know what? Guys and girls, I'm saying this right now:

If you wanna cheat on someone, don't! If you don't love them, break up with them. Dumping them is a hell of a lot easier to get over than finding out your boy/girlfriend cheated on you. And you say they're never gonna find out? Guess what? Everybody finds out.


Here, Taylor plays the guitar for the beginning, and then throws it off stage. I love that. Then she has an awesome costume change and then, at the end, she gets a little wet... LOL!!!!!

"And you say that the past is the past. You need on chance.
It was a moment of weakness when you said yes.
You should've said no.
You should've gone home.
You should've thought twice before you let it all go.
You should've known the word about you did with her'd get to me.
And I should've been there, in the back of your mind.
I shouldn't be asking myeslf why.
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet.
You should've said no,
Baby, and you might still have me."

BTW, totally buy Taylor's CDs. They are sooooooo good! Her first one has some wicked songs!!!
:-)

One more thing before I go chill and rest my fingers...
Every once in a while I'm gonna post theme songs. Like, people I know, and songs that go along with them. Some fictional characters, too. :-) Also, every couple months, I'm gonna be posting songs and quotes and yadda yadda yadda. But they're recommendations!! Books, CDs, singers, bands, authors, comedians, everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So show up and keep reading my life through the arts!!!!!


~Alyssa

Tuesday and Wednesday

Tuesday's song was So Small by Carrie Underwood.

Everyone thinks about themselves first. It's the worst flaw that we have as humans. You work super hard to get over that mountain and do something for yourself. Why not do something for others?
"Love is all matters after all, it sure makes everything else seem so small."
:-)

On Tuesday, I went over to this friend's house from church and we had a sleepover. We were playing with my iPod and we stumbled onto this song. I'm pretty sure I've used it before for this website, but I had never really listened to the song. Katie runs my iPod because I'm horrible with it. Every electronic that I touch dies. Which totally sucks. Anyway, I heard the song for like the second time and I realized, "This song has a lot of meaning." It's really cool. :-)

As you can see by the title, I decided to group the two days together. :-) For my eleventh b-day, we were in Kentucky and so my parents bought our presents there. I got an Ashley Tisdale CD and some notebooks. The best part was the notebooks. LOL.
But, I started listening to the songs and some of them were really good. Few had real meaning like Carrie's, but, Ashley is very talented and whatnot, and this song is for all the girls out there.


It's called Goin' Crazy and I think every girl has felt this way. We're boy crazy. Sort of. ;-) Simone is the real boy crazy one. And Ariana. And, Abby's kind of a player... LOL. Don't kill me! :-)

"You got me goin' crazy,
wanna be your baby
I don't know what to do,
I can't take my eyes off you,
You got me goin' crazy,
It's just the way you movin'
I really wish you knew,
what you do,
I can't take my eyes off you."

Sound familiar, girls?
hehehehehehehehe

LUV U ALL!!!!!!
Alyssa :-)

Hey, guys! I'm skipping last week's songs cuz I lost track. It's Spring Break. I have reason. So...Monday's song!!!!!!! Adam's Song by Blink 182!!!!!!
This is an awesome band. Tom, Travis, and Mark... Swoon...
:-) LOL.

So, watch the vid! I'm gonna be posting seperate blogs for the songs of the day of this week. Tuesday's will be the next blog. Then Wednesday's....yeah. You get it. And they're gonna talk about the band, why I like them, why I chose the song...
All that good stuff. :-)

Let's get started.

Monday was kind of like waking up and realizing, "Wow. I don't have to go to school." I slept in. I had lunch. I watched TV. And then my mom ruined it by making me do chores. Ugh...shudder. I've been texting my friends all week. We went to Wednesday Night Live at church, we went to the zoo yesterday. So far, it has been awesome! Anyway, on Monday, I did not get to see the House episode where the best actor ever, quit. Kal Penn played Kutner. He then decided that he wanted to join the Obama administration which then got my dad on a roll with jokes.

Dad: So they put him in a house that's white and give him stuff to do. He's gonna be like, "So this is the White House? It looks smaller up close." "Yeah, that's the camera angle."

:-( Kal is hilarious.

So--
SPOILER ALERT FOR ALL WHO HAVE NOT SEEN LAST LAST MONDAY'S HOUSE EPISODE!!!!!

Kutner killed himself. But he was always working hard on the team...blah blah blah...
Anyway, I picked this song to dedicate to him. Kutner, not Kal. Yeah. Okay. I'm gonna stop talking before I lose ALL of my dignity.

I really really really love this song. I think it's because it shows how real suicide is. And depression. And depression isn't something to be ashamed of. If you're seeing a therpist or a shrink or whatever, it's good. It's healthy. When suicide becomes an idea, that's when you really need to talk to someone. A school therapist, a parent, or just a friend. Did you know that one out of every twenty kids are depressed? So if we have aproximately 400 kids at Foothills, there's a good chance that at least 20 kids are suffering from depression. As much as kids try ot ignore it, it doesn't go away without help. Listen to the song. Really listen.

"I never thought I'd die alone. I laughed the loudest. Who'd have known?"
"I'm too depressed to go on. You'll be sorry when I'm gone."

It's the kids that don't talk about about death that you have to worry about. When they make a big show of it--eyeliner, black clothing, talking about what they're gonna do to themselves--there's something there that's sad. But it's small. When they stay quiet, when they hide, something's up. And that sucks because you can't tell. They laugh but inside they're crying and fighting to stay above water. If someone reaches out, you damn sure better help them. They might not be there the next day.

Now that all the serious stuff is out of the way, there's this really funny thing that I definitely have to show you. :-) It's from Hot Rod. Check it out.

LOL!

So, Rod is the guy in the beginning. Then Kevin, Rico, and Dane. Or Dave. Or something like that. But it's funny. :-)

LUV U ALL!!!!!!!!!!!
Alyssa

So Happy!!!!!!!

Today was so fun! It was all-in-all a very good day. Granted, I did have a dentist appointment and now my teeth--or my guns, I really can't tell--really hurt... :-(
Anyway...

Today's song was really great for how I was feeling. Let's jump right in. :-)

I'll Be Okay by McFly
This is a very inspiring song. Seriously. It's like, every though some stuff is gonna be hard right now, everything's gonna be okay. :-)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yle1YEjmGf0

Tomorrow's song is in the same vain. :-)

Tied Together With a Smile by Taylor Swift
This is basically my theme song. Every word of the lyrics is something has happened to me. It's sad, but a really good song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9DdjImufrgc&feature=related
"Hold on, baby you're losing it.
The water's high, you're jumping into it and letting go.
And no one knows...
That you cry, but you don't tell anyone.
That you might not be the golden one...."
Sry the song cuts off. That's the best version I can find. :-(

I'm chatting with some homies so I just wanted to give yall an update. Tell you more tomorrow!!!!!!!! END OF QUARTER!!!!!!!!!!!! HA!!!!!!!!!!

~Alyssa

Band Concert!!! Plus...It's April Fool's Day!

OMG!!!!!!! We have a band concert today!!!!!!! Plus an English Benchmark and a CH 10 Science Test. Great. I just ruined it. Anyways, I've been so busy, getting home at 4:30, finishing my hw at, like, 10:00, and then finally falling asleep at 10:30 because I text for half an hour. Then I wake up at 5:30 and take a shower, then get dressed, go on computer, and leave at 7:40. Very busy.

So, I created a plan to remember the songs of the day. I put a ton of sticky notes by my bed and then I just think about the day and write down the song, who it's by, why I chose it, and the thing that happened that made me think about that song. :-) Clever, huh?

Monday: Static by Everlife
Everything was super hectic with plans and stuff, and it felt like I wasn't understanding anyone and no one was hearing me. So, I thought this was the perfect song. Listen up.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ARIaq55Qy7E
It's super cool.

Tuesday: HELP! by The Beatles
Me and my friends all love The Beatles and I thought this was cool. I had Bible Study after school, and even our lesson made since with song. You can't do it by yourself. You need help. King Saul...King David... You know what? I talk too much. :-)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TU7JjJJZi1Q&feature=related
LUV THEM!!!!!!! LOL...

Today: Citizen Soldier by 3 Doors Down
:-) Don't hate me! This song is Gibbs' theme song, so it's put to a munch of clips from the first couple seasons. Oh...so good!!!!!!!
BTW, the blonde that looks really scared at, like, 2:10. That's Paula Cassidy. I luv her. :-)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IfJ8vlQRco0
The reason I chose this song was because we have a Benchmark and a Science test and a band concert. It's going to require a lot of fighting to get through the day. :-) At least I did all my hw. I think...

:-)
SHOUT-OUTS!

Mrs. v's class--look for my April Fool's Outfit today. I'm dressed in all black with eyeliner. Very cool.
The "F" group, plus Celeste, Julie, and Ariana--we get it...I'm crazy...stop talking about it.
LILY!!!!!!! ARGH! I can't believe you. You know I hate it that Zach calls me "Katie Mazer's Sister." Thanks. A lot. :-)


With luv...
Alyssa